This was a difficult week for me, despite meditating several times. It felt at times like I had intense pressure inside of me and I had more self-doubt creeping to the surface and found my mind overthinking causing much more anxiety than normal.
I also noticed many communications over the past couple of weeks far more tense than normal and saw people who typically handle stress with ease, lash out with frustration and anger they simply could not contain.
I hear more and more people sharing that they're starting to wake up in the wee hours of the morning between 3 and 5 when this has never really happened to them before. Many blame it on their bladder or start to fear something unhealthy is going on in their body.
What if what is happening by awakening in these early hours of the morning is really your Higher Self, your soul tapping you on the shoulder and whispering in your ear, "It's time to wake up!"
In this, I am not talking about the physical aspect of waking up each morning, but rather the spiritual awakening process.
My journey started over 34 years ago and at a point in time when I was waking up around 4 in the morning to travel from my off-base apartment to Naval Training Center Orlando for my shift as a Company Commander. I had to be there to pick up my students when they got out of school from their night shift classes.
My journey started with a catalyst of a deep vein thrombosis that nearly killed me and my healing occurred as a result of my own spiritual journey. I won't go into detail on that again here as I've detailed it all in my book, "A Path to Peace: A Reluctant Spiritual Journey."
Your journey could start for a variety of reasons. If you close your eyes and tune in to the energy within you and ask for clarification, you will receive it. It may or may not happen right then. You may feel a sudden sense of peace as if you have tapped a puzzle piece in place.
You may choose to ask for a sign and to make it so obvious you can't miss it, only to have someone unexpectedly speak to you about their own journey, recommend a resource or even something as simple as having this blog show up in your feed.
Here are a few steps to help you get started on your journey:
The first step in any healing process is awareness. Start to notice the areas in your life that aren't working and practice hearing the thoughts you think about what is happening. Ask yourself if these thoughts support the life you have...or the life you desire. Most of us spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about what we don't want and yet expect that the Universe will deliver the opposite.
Decide what it is you do want. It is important to determine what you do want and more importantly how this new experience will feel to you. If you start to practice the feeling of what you do want, it may feel unrealistic. Practice it anyway, because it helps surface the fear-based beliefs which are holding you back.
Be willing to face the fear-based negative beliefs that surface when you practice Step 2. Notice the thoughts that immediately come up telling you why you can't have your dream and why this is unrealistic. This is your programming that keeps you stuck where you are. If you continue believing in the programming, you will not make measurable progress. You have to be willing to look at the thoughts as reflections of your own pain. It may even help to imagine the thought as an energetic form that developed at a point in your life when your mind created a defense because it didn't know how to handle the painful situation that was happening. Tell this thought form, "I appreciate the protection you've provided, but now I need to let you go so I can replace you with a positive, love-based thought. This may seem kind of silly, but it is important to find a way to let go of these fear-based beliefs in order to replace them with love-based beliefs since "no two things can occupy the same space at the same time." As long as you have a belief in place, anchored with an emotion about your ability to manifest love, abundance, freedom, peace, etc.; you will continue to manifest the reflection of this energy even if it doesn't match your conscious desires.
Learn to feel your feelings. I have provided many different methods in prior posts such as Stephen Cope's "Yoga for Emotional Flow." I will admit this was likely the most difficult part of my own journey, learning how to process my emotions. What I like about this brilliant offering by Stephen Cope is he explains what is really happening with our emotions, the purpose they serve and then provides three guided exercises to move you through this process. It has been invaluable for me.
Meditate. There is no one right way. Anyone who tells you that there is has something to gain by saying that. You have to find something that works for you. I have provided many sources in past posts including my last post, "Shifting Your Reality and Healing Your Life," but there are many on YouTube to get you started. As you grow, what meditation resources you use will most likely change. This is normal.
As noted in the Dao De Jing, "The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."
As long as you are alive, it is never too late to take the first step forward on your path of awakening.